My Birthday...

My 35th birthday was yesterday, Monday, May 18. As I looked back over the last year since my last birthday, I'm glad it's behind me now. This past last year has seen me hospitalized, losing my job, my apartment, living out of my car for six months, losing my car, and living in a semi-truck before staying with a friend here in Lima, OH. So, yes I have had a horrible year but I'm going to start changing that and that starts now.

I took myself out for my birthday to put things behind me and think about how I can get my life back on track. I went to see two movies "Angel and Demons" and "17 Again". Totally two different movies. But it helped me think about what I need to do. After "Angel and Demons" I went to dinner and Beer Barrall and Pizza. Then I took a stroll around the local mall and drove around Lima. Then went back to the movies to watch "17 Again". If you could go back and be 17 again, would you? For me, that would be a year or so after my attempted suicide. If I could change anything it would be how I reacted and retreated within myself. I would try to be more active rather than trying to hide from what happened. But I can't go back so therefore, I have to do that now at the age of 35. But I did realize something. I remember that I'm a visual person. If I see it usually I can do it. So therefore, after the "17 Again" movie, I went to Wal-Mart and bought a foam tri-board, markers, thumb tacks, sticky pads, and index cards. I'm going to fill the board with my interests, weaknesses, strengths, traits, and etc to try find myself or what I want to do with my life. I also asked my former GCHS schoolmates for pictures and etc of me because I don't have any pictures or etc of me when I was in school.

I want to thank everybody that either text, called, or e-mailed to wish me a happy birthday. So, thank you, it means a lot.

TL