Probably Not Going Now…

As you all know, I have been making arrangements to go down to San Antonio, Texas lately but it looks like I want be going right now.  For one, even I know it’s a very high risk to go to San Antonio without a job lined up, no place to stay, and no money.  Yes, I do have job leads but as Michael said “I have job leads here too”.  Then after doing research and talking to people about homeless shelters, I have been getting basically the same answers from everybody to not stay in one unless it’s your very last resort and they mean very last resort!  It is supposedly one of the worst shelters to be in.  But I had a plan to move in with a friend down in San Antonio but that looks like it fell through because I haven’t heard from him in like three days or so.  Then I had a talk with Michael and told him basically why I’m doing this move is two reason:  1)  Even though I consider this move very high risk that maybe going to another area will jumpstart things.  It’s a new area, supposedly a little better job situation down in San Antonio than here?  2)  Because he gave me originally until the 15th of June to find a job or I could no longer stay.  Which I then was able to get him to extend until July 1st.  When I mention the second thing to him he said that he meant for me to find a job and that it didn’t mean I have to leave.  Once I heard that, a little bit of pressure was off but not much.  But I still need to get this more clarified with this.

But don’t get me wrong, I still want to go down to San Antonio when the time is right and it’s not high risk.  If I can solidify a place of living down there for two or three months rent free or can go down there with money myself to rent a place than I will still go down there.  But one thing I do know is that I don’t want to stay in a homeless shelter.  So, it looks like San Antonio is on hold for now?

Haven’t heard back from the recruiter down in Cincinnati about the Scanning Tech job.  That was the two month temp job.  I was supposed to hear something back on Friday but I didn’t.  I did call and leave a message but still didn’t get a response back from them.  So, I’m still praying and keeping my fingers cross that I get this job because it could be what I need to go down to San Antonio with cash in my pocket.  Until I hear back from them I will continue searching for a place to stay in Cincinnati for those two months just in case I do get the job.  I like to plan ahead.

My friend Adam called me last night.  He was sitting on his back porch of his new apartment drinking a Long Island Ice Tea and smoking a cigar just relaxing and he was buzzed a little.  We talked for about an hour or so.  He was telling me that the movie company that he was working for was up for sale and about this time next year it will be sold.  I find that very surprising though as it’s one of the top Five theatre company behind AMC I thought.  I guess I could be wrong.  I wouldn’t mind getting even a part-time job with a movie theatre because then maybe Chris will stop telling me to find a better outlet for my stress that’s free because it would be free?  *lol*  Anyway, the one thing that stuck out in my mind from Adam’s call is that he asked me “not to move because he will miss me and my friendship”.

It felt good to know my friendship is wanted.  Which got me thinking over night?  I see myself as having more acquaintances than friends.  I can basically count all my friends on my fingers.  Right now I have Chris, Brett, Michael, Adam, and Sean.  Looks like it was less than I thought as I was thinking I could count them on both of my hands but look like I was wrong.  Anyway, this got me rethinking my move to San Antonio as well.  If I move down there, I will be somewhat giving them up as I won’t have them close by like I did when I was here in Cincinnati.  I do miss hanging out with my friends.  I don’t know what I would do if Michael wasn’t my friend.  Who knows where I would be right now without him?  Seems like every time that I think about moving away from Cincinnati that something keeps me from pulling the string to move away.  Is this a sign that I’m meant to stay in the Northern Kentucky/Greater Cincinnati area?  Or am I just being indecisive?

TL